Journal

Okay. I've been doing this diet thing for 30 years. I've always been overweight, don't know why, don't care why. I'm sick and tired of being the fat kid. Let's face it even though I'm 33, I still see myself as the fat kid. So, as much as I hate it I've started the Couch to 5k running program that Tiffani recommended. Exercise isn't the problem, my eating habits are the problem. I get mad, upset, stressed, tired, blah in general and I turn to whatever is in the kitchen. I guess I have to learn other ways to deal with whatever crops up.

I've decided that I am no longer going to babysit Olivia. I just feel that I am being taken advantage of and I'm tired of it. They were here this morning when I got home from taking Brianna to school. Did anyone bother to tell me that she would be here early? No! I also feel like I am not giving Alex the attention he deserves. He and I can't make plans, we never know if Olivia will be tired and have a complete meltdown. He loves to do projects and I just feel like we can't do those or it's a pain in the butt to do them with two kids. Shoot, it may even help his behavior!